Ouside looking in

Do you ever feel like you are watching everyone else live life? I feel like that a lot lately. Social media seems to be a grand montage of everything I am missing out on. My friends seem to rarely invite me and the kids to do things with them, and sometimes I can't blame them - I do have to say no more than I'd like to. Why invite someone you know will likely not be able to even come? Part of me wants to stay home all the time, and part of me feels lonely and wishes I were invited out more. It's a strange phenomenon that I've been dealing with since I became sick. It's kind of like that symptom of depression - you don't enjoy the things you normally love to do. I think, for me, the things that I can do, and normally enjoy, just don't cut it. Because it's not enough for me. I want to be able to do all of it again. As much as I hate to admit it, my nature is of the "all or nothing" kind.

Sometimes I just have to take a break from social media. For my own mental health. I know I need to keep up my positive mentality. I have so much to be grateful for.