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I'm Just A Little Unwell

Tonight I drove home from Pound class, feeling a bit discouraged. I thought my body was finally getting stronger, but the last two classes have been very hard to get through. Simple moves make my muscles burn intensely, when I used to be able to do the whole class without issue. It's hard not to feel frustrated with myself. I know it's not my fault, but sometimes I think knowing there's nothing I can do makes it worse. While I was thinking about all of this, "Unwell" by Matchbox 20 came on the radio. Rob Thomas wrote the song, in part, for his wife, Marisol, who struggles with chronic neurological Lyme disease. I've heard the sound hundreds, if not thousands of times over the years, but after being diagnosed and knowing the story behind the song, it has taken on such a deep meaning, and makes me very emotional. I've made major strides. For a few months now, I haven't been living with daily pain. The anxiety and depression has receded. I'm still

Up & Up

Can you tell I've been feeling better? I update less whenever I'm feeling better, because I don't take good days for granted. It's now been 10 months since I started treatment, and I'm starting to feel human again. I know it may not last, but I'm staying positive. I just had a re-test for my thyroid, and my doctor said I need to lower my thyroid meds. This is great news, because it means my thyroid is working a bit better. I have also managed to keep off some weight, and the change is noticeable in my stomach. I'm able to wear jeans I haven't been able to fit in for at least a year, so I've lost a couple inches. It might as well be 20 lbs, because I haven't been able to lose weight in close to two years, so it feels like a huge accomplishment. For the last few months, I've been going to Pound once a week, but for the last 3 weeks, I've been managing twice a week. Last week, I realized for the first time in over a year, I'm finally

Treatment Update: Month 9 & 10

I missed the 9 month update (March 16th) and I'm close to 10 months, so I decided to do a combined update. Symptoms that have improved: Depression and anxiety  Pins & needles sensations Throat issues & reflux Swollen lymph nodes Exercise intolerance  Joint pain Headaches Forgetfulness Muscle weakness Foot pain Fatigue Symptoms that have worsened/relapsed/continued: Air hunger was bad for a few days following the most recent full moon Insomnia continues  Stiffness in fingers continues, especially in the morning Comments: I've been able to keep off some weight for the first time in a few years. There is a noticeable difference in my stomach - jeans that weren't fitting before are fitting again. It's slow going, but I believe the weight is beginning to come off. I've been able to exercise twice a week for the last two weeks, which has been extremely encouraging, and I hope it keeps up. I'm not feeling like complete garbage every