Refuse to sink - My journey battling Lyme disease

I am a very verbal person. Words are how I express my emotions and also how I process things. In my head, everything just jumbles together, but once I am with someone I trust who is willing to listen, I am able to verbally express and process what's going on inside. Sometimes I hate this about myself. To be honest, I still struggle with a lot of things I don't like about myself, but I'm slowly learning how to see the differences in who I am as gifts, rather than curses. Even though I am verbal, I have begun to hold back a lot. When people ask, "how are you?" I recognize that they really don't want to know how God-awful I've been feeling lately, how its a struggle to get out of bed and my kids tell me I'm no fun because I never feel good anymore. It's a formality. I never want to make it "all about me." I recognize that things could be worse. But that doesn't mean that they don't suck right now. Since my diagnosis nearly 8 mont

I have been treating for 28 weeks: 28 weeks with Ceftin 26 weeks with rifampin 22 weeks with tinidazole 1 month with teasel root 2 weeks with Samsara Herbs Lyme Mix Symptoms that have improved: Joint pain. headaches and foot pain are only happening when I herx Very little brain fog and memory issues  Very little bloating, stomach issues haven't been as bad I did not have ovulation pain again. I did have some bloating a couple days after, but nothing like I was getting before Air hunger and other Babesia symptoms have improved Symptoms that have worsened/relapsed/continued:  Herx reactions were numerous this month (headaches, joint pain, etc) My acne kicked back up More weight gain, even though I haven't changed anything I had a lot of PVC's (skipped beats) which is discouraging. It was made worse when I tried a new magnesium supplement Anxiety increase again Comments: I flared and herxed pretty much all month. I felt terrible on Christmas. I