I've been overdue for a health update for quite a while, so I thought it was about time that I take a few minutes and explain whats been going on for the last 6+ months. Late summer/early fall of last year, I noticed some changes to my cycle. I skipped a period, and started getting anxiety again on and off. Intuitively I felt there was something going on with my hormones and/or thyroid, so I decided to go to a new PCP I had heard good things about. (I updated about everything that happened in this post back in December)To make a long story short, my tests came out fine. Unfortunately, my symptoms started getting worse. Earlier this year, I had my first anxiety attack, and then another a few days later. I started struggling with anxiety and depression most of the month. Some days I couldn't bear to even go out to the store. I'd get horrible headaches and insomnia, my brain felt foggy, and I'd have severe temperature fluctuations; one minute having a hot flash, the n
2019 sparked the beginning of a beautiful journey. A journey deep within myself, to places I had long forgotten existed. I saw, for the first time, how much of my life was lived for others. For their approval, their validation, their amusement. My decades-long tendency toward people-pleasing had left me imprisoned in a cell of my own making. This year, I began to tear those walls down. For the first time, I asked myself - Who am I? What do I want? What do I believe? What do I want out of life? I stripped away the things that did not fit me and opened myself up to the things that did. Every belief I held was examined, every desire, every dream...I left no stone unturned. It has been a journey of transformation, and, like the process of transformation always is, it was fraught with pain, frustration, and difficulty. Working on your inner shit isn't for the faint of heart. We spend so long running from our pain, it rarely occurs to us to turn around and embrace it. But in order to m